Releasing Abortion Guilt
When I was 19 years old, I became pregnant. The father of the baby had already been married and had 3 children and didn’t want more. I inwardly wanted to keep the baby but did not have the courage to honor my own heart’s desires. Feeling unsupported, I convinced myself I was making the right decision to abort it since my life was only beginning and I’d already fallen into a wonderful career path. It turned out to be one of the most damaging decisions of my life because I crossed my own moral boundary lines and buried what was deeply important to my heart. It was an extremely disturbing experience in so many ways. Perhaps someday I will write about it. For now, I simply feel called to share the artwork used to help me process self-hatred and inner condemnation since I absolutely adored and wanted children.
My Inner Judge, and My Forgiving Compassionate Self
The Calling 