It’s not really accurate to say there’s 2 sides to every story. We speak… and people hear… and they don’t always hear what we’re saying. So there’s really 4 sides to a story… the 2 sides being told and the 2 sides being heard. Even that’s just story telling and not always Truth.
In the center of the box of the 4 sides to the story is the mixture of truth… reality as it happened, the reality we are unable to see… because we don’t have eyes to see everything behind others actions… nevermind our own. Then there’s our perception of reality as we FELT and believed it happened… which is still only “our” reality at that moment but not necessarily Truth.
In fact, it is one of the biggest trip-ups is to conclude our reality is Truth based on our feelings… because feelings come from a multitude of past experiences, thoughts, and beliefs impressed upon us BY us or others and are not always a factual reflection of what is happening to us in the present moment. We are, more often than not, reacting to the way we have “learned” to. These reactions can oftentimes be defense mechanisms or survival reactions we have learned to use, which is absofreakinglutely normal to pull them out of the toolbox, yet sometimes these tools no longer serve us and we don’t even know it.
Here’s the thing… our feelings DO offer us the biggest opportunity to see the Truth about ourselves… the way we act… what triggers us… how we treat others… how we treat and think about ourselves. If only we can honestly and truthfully have eyes to look at ourselves and the root Fear happening within instead of looking at the “others” within the story. The answers are always behind our Fear.
What are the stories (ie. Lies) we are telling ourselves that are fueling that Fear? Are they the lies of “lesser ego thinking” such we are not important enough… we don’t matter… we aren’t good enough… not loved enough… not respected enough?… OR are they the lies of “greater ego thinking”… I am better than this person… I am older… I will outsmart them. Only you can answer.
The truth is… most people just don’t care enough to self soul-search and discover the Truth that will set them free of their own Fear based suffering… even if it feels caused by others. I bet most people don’t care enough about Truth to have read all the way to the end of this blog post. That is my preconceived story I am telling myself based on my internal Fears.
You see… I love to write but my Fear is that my Words don’t matter. I tell myself the World has enough Words being spoken and written. I ask myself who is possibly listening or digesting when everyone is so busy trying to tell their own stories? Who can take in anything at all in a world when so many are existing in a state of trauma due to our current times and all of the fake propaganda news stories that continue to perpetuate that state?
The last thing I want is to just add more Words to our World unless those Words can move mountains to get us beyond our current state which I perceive as dire… but is it? Also… Who says I am supposed to move mountains? Who says I can’t? Nobody. These are just fragments of a Fear based story my mind tells me to keep me from doing what I love to do… Write.
The Truth is… I get angry inside and just want the whole World to shut up and be silent for a little while since all this talking, tweeting and posting seems to be bringing us to an ugly climax. I think I can’t possibly make a difference. I can. I already do just by being the unique me God made me to be. I just do it the best when I am NOT in Fear, or so I think.
The Calling 